i wanna so believe in truth

correction

Tue, 26 Dec 2006 16:54:57 GMT

these are my grades:
A-TX State and Local Govt
B-Speech
C-Stellar Astronomy
D-Psychology

interesting. the last two... i thought would be switched. or the same [c or d the same]
at least i kept it all different. haha..... not

skjdgfiulergbv

Thu, 21 Dec 2006 07:45:22 GMT

so.. it looks like 2 B's and 2 D's

yeah. im a little pissed mostly because my psych grade is bullshit. i felt i did so good on that last test.. 59 PLUS i did the bonus assignment. WHAT THE FUCK! agh im so fucking pissed.

ok so next semester.. better go better.

WHAT THE HELL IS MY PROBLEM!????????

first semester.

Mon, 27 Nov 2006 06:12:34 GMT

wow first semester of college is almost over.
im excited!

it didnt go as i planned. grades... yeah not that great. but now i know how to better manage my time mext semester. but then again since i will be working 30+ hours a week. my not in school time will no longer be all spent being with zj and everybody but at IKEA. yeah so i gotta use my breaks between classes to my full advantage.

man i fuckin miss theatre. i was talking to thad [co-worker] today about it. he was a theatre kid too not as much as me but still was. his theatre people didnt like band people either. hah funny how that is EVERYWHERE. its like hey FUCKIN CLUE PEOPLE.

anyway. i feel like im drifting.. things are changing.. i barely see zj anymore. hes got band and berklee shit. i never see sunshine. i rarely see any of my friends. FUCKIN IKEA RULES MY LIFE. agh. its like blockbuster but worse. i had more than 2 days off a week to LIVE at blockbuster. sure the pay was shit. but the work was fun and well i HAD A LIFE!!!!!!

JUST LET ME LIVE IKEA!

Question

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 16:58:36 GMT

is it just me or is anyone else having a hard time actually having to do work now? i mean i started the year off good, i was reading taking notes and now ive stopped completly... yeah not good. i have a test tomorrow and a test thursday. blah. psych and astronomy. we shall see.

also i think no matter what im going to go to boston with zj. only problem the day we leave i have a astronomy test.. so i need to either schedule a time to take that before.. or after i get back.. should i go? would be fun..

9/11

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 06:01:49 GMT

so this is my attempt at poetry.. i wrote it on a a scrap of paper in my purse. i hadnt really felt 9/11 until this year, i guess im now mature enought to fully understand what happended that day. so tell what you think.

Planes hit giants

full of innocent people

heros rush in

giants fall

Plane hits a side of a building with five

full of our country's defence inside

Plane goes down

in a country field

rising against the terror

In the end

some could not e s c a p e,

some w a l k e d away

and some had to c r a w l

Now they live in our hearts

alongside

the horror of that day

It began.

Wed, 30 Aug 2006 21:51:46 GMT

ok so school started and its not as bad as i thought it would be. i thought i would be so fucked when it came to stuff but im really not. i mean its not fun but interesting to learn alot of the stuff i will be learning. and its nice to be in a classroon where people want to learn and arent a bunch of assholes.

my professors are pretty cool. i mean nothing too out of the ordinary to report.

work isnt so bad yet. but i guess we shall see when the first exams roll around.

only downside is that i am at SP way to damn much im not even going to lie. i mean i have an hour to kill between classes on MW and 3 hours on TTH.. i think it will change when i start having a normal work load but for now im there. but its nice to have lunch with zj and laurie. and occasionally sunshine when she doesnt have to race to the doctor.

one really cool think about my govt. class is that its required we do a ride along with a cop, fireman or emt. i think that really awesome. if i go with zjs moms boyfriend for the emt. he works on riverside and theres always cool stories. i havent decided which dept. i want to do yet.

so its began and its not as bad as i thought. i hope it stays that way. and im starting off organized.. again lets hope that stays.

god fucking damnit

Fri, 18 Aug 2006 05:10:07 GMT

i just made things worse i wasnt helpful at all in the end.

♥

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 21:37:06 GMT

august 28th. the day MY summer ends. and its costs me alot of dollars to do it. damn round rock and its out of district gay-ness-

so i was a helpful gf today [so i think, he may not agree once we see how the scheule ended up]and helped zj get his schedule closer to what he wanted it to be. its not perfect but i tried. well ok his dad did all the work like telling the lady to change it and that he knows what is best for his son a little better then she does. so yeah. i just hope it was the right class. couldnt get rid of physics because there was no astronomy... maybe sunshine can do something about that one. never know. but the crazy schedule nazi might bite her head off i dont know-

im at my moms work. agh kill me im so bored-

dont know what im doing tonight. i hope i can hang out with zj.. but hes got practice with his new band or something-

im going to get my hair cut soon. sometime monday i know that. i love hair cuts. i may dye it too. most likely not though-

i need to get the nerve to ask for more money at blockbuster... i really need it mostly since acc was more expensive then originally thought-

peace+

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 04:50:34 GMT

this is my life for the next 2 weeks:

today-mats softball game
tuesday- dashboard say anything concert
wednesday- maybe hang out with the shine
thursday- work
friday- bowling with my lovely amanda
saturday- leave for new york
sunday- new york
monday-new york
tuesday- new york
wednesday- new york
thursday- come back from new york
friday- hang out with everyone

bahhhhhhhhhhh im so excited.

Superman Returns

Thu, 29 Jun 2006 15:20:51 GMT

GO SEE IT.

Oh My God.

I LOVED IT.

fantastic.

then again im partial to dark hard blue eyed BEAUTIFUL men. (Elvis was one)

BUT AWESOME movie in general.

Great action, Great love twist, Great special effects, Great emotion.

i fell in love with Superman.

M&M

Mon, 19 Jun 2006 16:59:30 GMT

already taking myspace shots. look at that kissy face.

BEAUTIFUL

Fri, 16 Jun 2006 00:12:33 GMT

Uncle Stevie looks nervous but hes really not. The picture was just taken randomly.

Megan Michelle Blakeney

Thu, 15 Jun 2006 20:54:08 GMT

BABY WAS BORN TODAY!

12:44 pm

7 pounds 65 counces

19 inches.

im so excited. (can you tell?)
i feel like i should be an aunt or something. but im not just a plain jane ole cousin.

im gonna post pictures. when i get back from the hospital!

YAY BABIES!

moving on...

Thu, 15 Jun 2006 15:17:40 GMT

now that the anger of last night has passed.
bah mother daughter relationships. what are ya gonna do.

i think this fits (sort of)

SUPERMAN: Are you telling me you've been married to this woman for 15 years?
RICKY: Yes! For 15 years.
SUPERMAN: And they call me Superman!

anyway i just take the bad with the good. and at that moment it was bad but it happens.

MOVING ON.

i finally picked up my piece of paper that vaildates i have truly graduated.. my diploma. it was sad. and i ordered 4 transcripts. ACC, Texas State, UT and me. i dunno figured i would cover all my bases just in case. picking them up monday and that will be the last time i ever HAVE to go to school. if i ever go back it will be to visit and i will stay in the F-WING.

well i actually have a little work to do today. give me about 2 hours and i'll be back.

bah

Wed, 14 Jun 2006 19:50:35 GMT

ok so i might not go to UT after all, it maybe TX STATE. i dont know. BAH. i probably go there because thats were i should go. its where i will do best at but yeah got another year before that though.

so yeah im gonna have another cousin tomorrow at about noon-ish. YAY! im so excited. i keep forgetting that its only my cousin and that im gonna be an aunt but im not. im never gonna be an aunt by blood. only marriage. its never as much fun. w/e i'll make her call me aunt nikki. yeah shut up i know im lame.

so i hate BBV.

work sucks.

Sat, 10 Jun 2006 15:22:26 GMT

off to the lake

with "the family"

Rita, Paul

Mauve, his not yet named boy toy

Me (Lucy), Charlie

if ya near Lake G-town give me a ring and come say hi.

Oasis

Thu, 08 Jun 2006 21:41:04 GMT

this is why i love texas.

i have made my choice.

Thu, 08 Jun 2006 16:12:36 GMT

Ok.

i think my choice is going to be...

ACC then UT.

yeah. i think i will be much happier with that.

this is what i get for not doing what i should of a long time ago, like when i was applying.

so i am staying in austin for another year for sure.

next year, we shall see. if i keep a 3.4 GPA i should be allowed into UT.

::crosses fingers::

shit! nothing makes sense

Tue, 06 Jun 2006 19:09:40 GMT

ok so i have been thinking instead of working.

option 1: ACC then UT.

+not fail math, not fail english. spend all my time at UT focusing on Theatre and History.

+better history program.

+better school, more well known.

option 2: Texas State.

-maybe fail math and english. then focus on Theatre and History.

/ good school.

option 3: ACC then Texas State.

-not fail math or english. then focus on Theatre and History.

same as above.

yeah i thought i had already decided what i was going to do but i just dont know what to do.

what do y'all think? should i stay or should i go?

in a southern accent.

Sun, 04 Jun 2006 06:34:49 GMT

so yeah. i have realized im not going to miss high school one bit. mostly because of all the bs. i mean fake girls make me want to vomit and they make it hard to breathe. i know this because today in while hearing high pitched voices while lying and trash talking there was a tightness in my chest. i hate girls so that means i hate myself sometimes. im not going to lie i can be an absolute girl sometimes. but im just glad my life doesnt revolve around shit like that.

btw amy in aladdin jr was AMAZING. she is so funny. go see her $15.

im going shopping with sunshine and cassie tomorrow. that will make me happy. i havent seen sunshine in a week, thats really sad.
i was going to see schreck today but when i called her back she didnt answer and then she turned her phone off or it died? dont know.

bah.

Doctor Jekyll is wrestling Hyde for my pride

Wed, 31 May 2006 02:56:08 GMT

so high school is over and i feel like reflecting on the past four fuckin years:

first i wanna name every teacher that has made an impact in my heart and life. all these educators have been amazing and are the best. they should all win awards.

1.Sunshine Morgan

-like duh shes one of my BEST friends. shes awesome like to the max. she has inspired me in SO many ways.

2. Erin bo baron Schreck

-again one of my BEST friends. she is so wild and crazy and just so great to everyone she meets, unless you are a jerkface then she will kill you. but she also has inspired me.

3. Ms. Cole

-wow amazing woman. i hope one day i can be a teacher and own my own business at the same time. she has done so many great things in her life she has seen alot and talked to alot of famous people. (thats really f-ing cool in my book if you talked on the phone with john wayne even if it only was to direct his call)

4. Mr. A

- i dont know if he knows this but he really bumped up my love of history he was just so amazing to have teach me. everytime he lectured it was just awsome. he is just awesome.

5. Mr. Chowen

-again dont think he knows this but the semester i had him it was really great to see how much he loved history his passion for it was alot of fun. mostly when it came to the french history.

now my friends. there have been a few that i really love and a few i wish i stayed closer to but shit happens and you just gotta roll with the punches.

0. Jared Oberholtzer.

- GOD. it explains it all.

1. Amanda RITA Poriss

-shes a keeper.

2. Steven MARV Swank

-funny as damn

3. Cassie Landrum

-what i think i would be like if i was completly open.

4. Sarah Ecstein (i tried OK!)

-what a doll. what i would be if my mother would let me pierce and dye my hair. and if i would look as good as she does doing it!

5. Kaitlin Jordan

-best friend EVER since kinder. the one that got away.

6. Lindsey Rogers

-the OTHER one that got away. we ruled. {lindsey nichole/lynsey ann nicole}

well i met amazing people and learned alot.everyone i mentioned you will ALWAYS have a place in my heart. there are alot i didnt mention {amy bradley <3, midnight starr, bobbi love, Erin Kessler, dustin larson, kathleen tran, leah johnston, james goertz }you all have a place in my heart as well.

i also cant end this with out mentioning the great person that theatre {its} brought me. ZJ. my love. love love love. no words can explain how much i love.

from sarah

Thu, 11 May 2006 17:25:32 GMT

3 YEARS AGO TODAY

How old were you?: 14

What grade year were you in?: 9th

Where did you go to school?: stony point

Where did you work?: nowhere

Where did you live?: my old house on ferndale

How was your hair style?: uhh i think it was like shoulder length

Did you wear braces?: no

Did you wear glasses?: yes

Who was your best friend?: sarah and cassie

Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend: erich

Who was your celebrity crush?: Matt Sharuga

Who was your regular-person crush? "the angel"

How many tattoos did you have?: none

How many piercings did you have?: zero

What car did you drive?: none

What was your favorite band/group?: Good Charlotte.... shut up

What was your worst fear?: uhhh i dont recall

Had you smoked a cigarette yet?: no ser

Had you gotten drunk or high yet?: nope!

Had you driven yet?: no

Had you been to a real party yet?: no

Had your heart broken?: no

Had broken someones heart?: no, not that i know of

HA HA HA!!! LETS SEE WHAT YOU ARE NOW !!!!!

How old are you?: 17

What grade are you in?: 12th

Where do you go to school?: stony point still

Where do you work?: Blockbuster

Where do you live: new house right by SUNSHINE!

Where do you hang out?: ZJ's house, my house, work, school

How is your hair style?: shoulder length...

Do you have braces?: no

Do you wear glasses?: yes but i contacts now.. thats right

Still talk to any of your old friends?: yes i do, gotta love them girls

Who is you bf/gf?: ZJ

Who is your celebrity crush? Joaquin Phoniex

Who is your regular-person crush?: ZJ.

How many piercings have you had? still zero but im gonna pierce my ears and maybe my lip.

How many tattoos?: zero but in 2 weeks i will have one.

What kind of car do you have?: tan camry

What is your favorite singer/group?: johnny cash, panic! at the disco

What is your biggest fear?: life after highschool

Have you smoked a cigarette yet?: yes

Have you gotten drunk or high?: haha and then threw up on my porch.

Have you been to a real party?: ... i dont think it could be called a party.

Has your heart been broken?: a few times

Have you broken someones heart?: yes

dun dun dun

Tue, 09 May 2006 16:34:34 GMT

we finished the horror movie!

yay!

im so excited and i just cant hide it.

its almost over.

Fri, 05 May 2006 16:59:50 GMT

from hiding behind soda machines in 9th grade to this.

we are fabulous.

i deleted my other journal.

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 20:09:57 GMT

yay return of the emo journal. yeah.

so sunshine i know you read this and i just wanted to say this....

CRAP IM NOT READY FOR THE LINE CHECK FOR ONE ACT!

-Nikki